I don’t think I’ve ever dreaded a holiday so much as I did Christmas this year. I knew it would be tough financially and also emotionally. As most holidays are when family members are difficult. I have never been as financially strapped as I was this year and really dreaded the thought of giving sub par gifts or not being able to shop freely on the internet as I had in the past.
This year Tim and I shopped together in real stores and did it all for us and some for my mom within one day! Can you believe it?!? We also managed with a very minimal budget. I spent most of December fretting over gifts for family members and praying no one was offended or hurt at my lack of spending compared to previous years. And you know what?!? No one gave a damn! Everyone was pleased with their gifts and seemed to appreciate them just like they had during all the other years. My kids were so great and absolutely thrilled with their gifts. They loved what they received and were very sincere in showing their gratitude. I was so proud of them and probably had my best Christmas to date.
I laid in bed tonight, listening to Tims breathing and feeling his heavy hand on my side. He was completely comfortable and relaxed. I counted up the 15 years I’ve spent with him and I thanked God for every single one of them. I prayed quietly to myself and counted all of my blessings. This may be one of the toughest seasons of my life financially and I’ve made some bad choices this past year but I am so damn proud of the hard work I’ve put in to get here.
I am about to tackle some even bigger things in the upcoming months but I know I can do it. Tim and I can handle whatever is thrown at us. Satan only blasts you when he sees you winning and wants to steal your joy. I’m not going to let him. We’ve got this.