Some days life is roses and sparkles and sunshine and nice smells and some days life is stuffy noses and earaches after being sick already for too long. Alongside the physical symptoms of a sickness I didn’t kick because of a reaction to my antibiotic, I’m battling some heavy heart and head stuff. I usually don’t let my headspace get so full. I can generally decompress or find a healthy outlet but today…I just need rest. I run run run and take on so many things and then occasionally it piles up in my head and I just crack. I don’t know why I operate this way but I do.
This is life on a normal day
This is my view for now because I just simply cannot function anymore today without giving my brain rest.
I know some people roll their eyes at anxiety and depression but it’s real. I’ve been treading water for too long. It’s time to close my eyes and float a while. Gods got this. But my mom guilt is killing me. How do I just go lay down while life keeps going on in my household?
This post wasn’t necessarily about getting answers or solving all my problems. This post was a way for me to get these thoughts out of my head and hopefully allow myself some grace.
I’m fine really. Just tired. After some rest and sunshine this week, I’m sure I’ll be back to myself in no time.