I’m blogging to procrastinate. See how that works…I’m being somewhat productive to put off being productive. But whatever. Ha! This is the current situation in my house right now:
It’s terrible and I hate that it gets this way but when you have 4 busy people zooming in and out of a house, it tends to get messy quick. Especially when the maid keeps disappearing and blogging or making food. Ya know? 🤷🏼♀️
But seriously it’s time to talk about something I’ve been avoiding…grandma arms. You know what I’m talking about, when you straighten your arms but the upper arm fat pools at the elbow and makes a bump? Oh yes…I have said for years how much I despise that. I can have a belly and booty like no ones business but that grandma thing ain’t happening. And guess what y’all? I think it’s starting. 🤬
So I’ve been trying to work out again to strengthen my arms because chatarangas aren’t pretty anymore when your triceps are not strong. I signed up for a Beachbody on Demand thing on my roku . Right now I just have the 14 day free trial but I’m considering keeping it for a while longer because I do like the workouts. I started the 80 Day Obsession series but I did the “a little obsessed” version because I know I’m out of shape and need a modifier. It didn’t seem hard in the moment but boy am I feeling it today! My core hurts to even breathe! My rib muscles are even sore and I didn’t use weights or bands that first day!
So my goals for today are to pick up my house, eat some breakfast and workout before I go to watch my little baby at 4. I guess I’m posting it here to keep me accountable again. This blog used to be a little space to hold me accountable. I don’t know what the heck it is now. I think it’s a place for me to ramble and give myself the illusion that I’ll turn this into a book or something. I don’t know.
I do know one thing, I used to want to inspire everyone to get on this crazy train of working out and eating right and feeling great with me. And right now, that’s just not my place in this world. I’m over talking about my past pain and trying to heal, blah blah blah. I just want to live dammit! I want to try to spend the moments in my life enjoying them and not always sharing every single moment with people on social media that might not even care. This blog is for me and that’s one of the things I’ve loved about it. I can express my thoughts as if it were truly my diary. I don’t have to be allshined and polished here. I can be a mess in my jammies at 9:45 on a Wednesday posting pictures of my mess.
I started a new thing with Tim. My phone I longer comes into the bedroom. I bought a fun alarm clock and my phone e doesn’t come to bed with us. I leave it in the living room and we have actual conversations now. It’s amazing! Ha! Probably not for him because I chatter his ear off but it’s brought something out in me that I enjoy again. If I can’t sleep right away, I read a book. It’s been YEARS since I’ve read a book before bed!
This warmer weather has inspired me to come around. For months I was an unproductive mopey zombie that didn’t enjoy much. I hate that the weather effects me so much but it does. I’m totally enjoying all of the life outside my windows, the birds the breeze the sunshine the flowers the kittens! It’s like I have my old self back that’s been put away all winter.
I’m putting this post to rest and I’m going to jump head first into my duties as maid/mom/cook/wife and I’m going to have a great day! I hope you do too!